Guten Tag
September 25, 2010 05:25
So my family if moving from hot hot Texas, to the cooler Bavaria of Germany in a couple of days. After a too long wait of being first time guinea pigs of the expatriate process for family by my husband’s company, the date is finally here. I’ve been reading a Zen for Happiness book, and it says that when something bad happens, it happens for a reason. Now I’m not sure if there is a good reason, but the extra time my son, hereafter known as SunStreaker (yes he is a transformer fan), and I spent the summer at Seattle with my family and a month in Oaxaca, Mexico with a friend from an exchange student program. That month in Mexico was very very long, and the fact of not having a car, or our own house, being in a foreign city with a broken infrastructure, gave me lots of time to reflect on what it means to be a family, have a home, and nationality.
In that time, I realized after 2 months without my husband, hereafter known as Peter Pan, although I am strong enough to go for weeks on my own, I need a partner to raise my son. Having a home can be a haven from all the difficulties of the day, but staying at someone elses home, you never can fully be home. Everything is placed and set according to their mind set and likes, it is like being in a physical representation of a melding of the people’s souls that reside there, and the different overlapping ideas of self are constantly bumping against each other. I’m still looking to create that cozy home that feels like – this is our family. Maybe I haven’t been able to reach it since I’m still trying to figure out who I am.
Anyways, enough with the deep thoughts. We are off to a new adventure! My hopes for the next two years are to learn German to a decent conversational degree, play soccer, have people over for dinner, and travel.